This morning I am pleased to find the blog! LOL. Listening to the beautiful chanting of the Benedictine Monks and THRILLED its Friday! Tomorrow afternoon my sisters and I leave for the beach. First time all together on the beach in 10 years! We use to go every year together but drug addiction kept the middle one from coming the last 10. Still not sure she is "clean" but she is at least managed. The oldest is super freaked about life in general ;~) and pissed off at everyone. They all smoke so it should be F*U*N!
Looking to get my faith back on. (Like getting my drink on ya know LOL)
Tomorrow I will go to confession early and maybe a saturday mass if I can get packed before bed tonight. I miss the connection with Christ. Some people that I love dearly really let me down with lies. First my daughter and those around her and it has taken me almost a year to relax with her back home. Those adults that I trusted with her for guidance and formation simply manipulated and enabled her... My faith crumbled with those relationships when Christ had nothing to do with it. My depression of the past 10 years grew in severity and I was guilty as well but not Christ.
There was a book written by a priest that suffered from depression and the darkness it brought into his life. How he struggled to find his way into light of life again. Now having been on anti-depressants for 10 months I can see how depressed I was but I wonder will I have to be on these for ever? Occassionaly the shadows have crept in ... and it takes strength not to fall into old patterns...
well life is good
