Morning laughs rock...

This morning I woke to coffee and blogland.  The first thing I do is look for recent posts and found this very funny video of a brown hair mermaid barbie what a great way to start my day!  Then I have to see if the "crazy dad" has put up new snipits of his life with the most adorable kids.

Humor is wonderful and it has a way of making so much of life bearable!  My husband reads me the morning headlines, which are very important as well, but lordie mercy such drama while you drink your coffee! no thanks...some how my personality is more on the stand-up, sarcastic humorous Buddha! Some where between zen and cornie jokes.

Last night it was me and my einstein all alone.  no kids, no guests, just us.  Too tired to out do our nights of youth we opted for a sit in the garden tub!  The mind's picture of our sweet 50+ old bodies is ample humor but sweet too! As I have said before we have known each other since we were 13! Living two houses apart we have seen the best and worst of each other over our lifetimes.

The conversation started with some kinda sexual reference of course! And when I truly challenged him we had to laugh that how is it possible that we have come so far together.  Starting with his "proposal" while we were making out at a drive in, he asked,
"Would you go to Idaho with me?"  I said sure, I would do that!

Later the next day I was telling my sister about his question.  She said, "So are you getting married?"  I realized he hadn't said "marry me" he said "go with me".  I really didn't know what he meant till he gave me an engagement ring some days later while we watched reruns of Gilligan's Island

So Divine Intervention OR Humorous BUDDHA told me to take his invite on great faith and we never looked too far out into the future and planned for anything! LOL we just cruzed.

I like being here, but where am I?

I like being here, curled up on the couch (that I hate) with my laptop.  My blog is like a friend to me.  As I strolled thru the list of recently written blogs it is apparent that I chose several during and after the election! ~;0) and another large selection of natural, alternative self care ones.  Recently have added a lot of creative, artsy re-purposers! LOL and damn if that Pioneer Woman does always just make me laugh~ can she really be just one woman? Or is there a team behind that blog?  It isnt fair how some got every type of creativity and intelligent skills.  I bet she makes money with hers! How I would love to be able to do that! 

After I walked out of the dental lab this past January I knew it was time to just go be me.  It seems though that quickly as I come into focus for myself I seems I drop the lenses.  That is ok I guess, I mean what if it turned out that I don’t really like me!

This is what I would like to see in a day and on a blog tab.

Words of wisdom that make me smile  (draw out humor of the day)

Pieces of re-purposed life (my latest amazing creation ~ furniture, room decor, yard)

Sculpting Self   (at the gym and holistically speaking)

Simple kitchen survival  (really dont like this place but society, family expectations)

Admiring Notes of real people in my life (appreciating those around me)

And of course they would all be etched in a photography!  So many options to draw your interest into the trees...how will I know which to use?  someone, anyone could make a better combination. 

Note to self: It is hard to find the confidence of selection when you are just new in an area!  another confusing element of life...perhaps there is NOT a right and wrong choice.  Just like I am not really lost I just dont know where I am going!

How do you put tabs on your blog anyway? Why do I think I want to be the best at anything? Why cant I just do things I like to do? 

one place I visited

Some days I cant find any words in my head, absolutely none!  And I avoid this place with anything.  Just about one year ago I started having really bad panic attacks.  The insecurity, the fear, well it was amazing to me how quickly they paralyzed any confidence in self.  My goal was to work through them and keep them from shrinking my world.  So with a very patient husband I would battle daily, and sometimes hourly to work through them.  There were mornings that I would almost purposely trigger one just because the mind amazes me and the ridiculous fear was heart stopping.  Why was my mind being so stupid and why was I letting it!

One morning my husband had to leave town for work for an entire week.  I was so freaked that I went and bought him a cell phone. He may be the last human on the planet with out a cell!  The morning he left, I KNEW without any doubt that I had to do something to keep my mind SO busy.  The answer was, kitchen make over!! And I couldnt tell him what I was doing because he is a perfectionist and rarely has positive opinions about anything!  This would be a project that would have to be done in 4 days!

Well the "breakfast nook" got completely stripped and painted in four days.  I stood on the tallest ladder in the world to reach up to the ceiling.  Most days I was up there for at least 8-10 hours.

But it worked! I only had one really bad event and it was because I couldnt get in touch with Mr. Personality!

Slowly I made it thru that winter and moved on into spring.  With the warm weather and the sun, my strength returned.  And I continued to stay busy.

This past weekend we celebrated a birthday for our daughter.  She turned 21 and I finished the freaking kitchen!