OMG! I spent two days in a quandary over the tension between my husband and I. Wondering all sorts of wonderful things…like will it ever be good between us again, is going to leave me, is he going to yell at me some more? I had my protective gear on by 4:30 and ready to tell him ok if you are not thru being mad at me could you PLEASE get it over with…He got home early met me at the stairs and apologizes! With an immediate sigh of relief I wanted to punch him! And he knew it! Said he really didn’t know why he was being a butt head. Well I do but we wont go there this morning.
Anyway it got me thinking about so many things. Like could I make it on my own? Would I want to live like this forever? How did I get here? Course some of you may say “you think of that crap all the time” LOL
My daughter, a sophomore in college, got a job promotion! Yep, she has been at the same place since she was 16 and has proven her communication skills are very amazing. They want to train her to be an assistant to the head of marketing..eventually traveling to meet with clients, leading conferences, writing more marketing material. I was really thrilled for her because she is one of those that has lots of gifts and my favorite of hers is that she can is a fabulous writer and speaker so of course she wants to major in Biotechnology!
To watch her put together papers over the years it has just blown my mind. I really pushed the writing even though she showed great talent in math and sciences which her dad really pushed LOL..but if I could write with that kind of flow and passion well, I would be making money in that field instead of pouring up freakin dental models.
Thankful that I have at least one thing I can do that makes $16.00 an hour ya know but good LORD this is just NOT what I want to do forever.
The space between…is a title of a Dave Matthews song. That is where I want to write from. The fourth dimension of life; the comical sarcastic and sometimes tearful side of discovering who you are in relation to those around you. The picture that is visible is often so different from what is going on underneath the skin of people. The swirl of emotions behind what is said and done.
I am going out of town today. Not taking my lap top! (better get my Friday 55 done huh?) I will be taking a journal and jotting notes of life from the the trip…starting with leaving home, the airport, the nerves it takes for me to do this trip, the time with a niece and her son and many college kids! As we stay on campus to watch her son play soccer. And the flight home, and return to my life. I hope to find colors of life and comical making them real.
One thing for sure I will return to a messy house. I have to just accept that if the kitchen is tidy to be happy to expect NOTHING more! Ok now I must ponder my Friday 55 and hope to have time to throw it up here before I leave this afternoon.
Isn't it wonderful when all our worst case scenarios dissolve with an "I'm sorry".
ReplyDeleteHope your daughter continues writing. You can't learn creativity.
My wife and I have been married 36 years... We fought all our fights in the first 20.... Life beats it out of you, and the one that is mad is the only one suffering. I had to get up at 6:30 to drive her to work, as she left her car there with a flat tire.. A year ago, I bought her a gizmo for her car that could jump start it, or inflate a tire.. She moved it from the trunk to the back seat while the road service guy got the spare out. I asked her if she tried to use it, to which she said no... 10 years ago, I would have flipped out- today I just told her to drive carefully on the way home...
ReplyDeleteCongratulations to your daughter! She really sounds like she is on her way.
ReplyDeletei'm thinking that i hate fights with my husband too. thank God they are far and few in between. and i usually come out on top! HA! thanks for following me over at the crib!
ReplyDeleteNow our fights last fifteen minutes tops. Then I apologize. I just hate to see her unhappy.
ReplyDeleteWill look for that 55.